"I don't believe in birds."
These books ARE birds.
But which birds.
Those that fly in a straggling V shape over our town
(don't say which town)
Don't believe in them.
Things have actually to be true to be
declared so, truthfully.
And anything at all declares itself.
The talking people
(forget about what they say)
still say 'talking people'
...
Silent knowledge.
The blue caboose goes by ...
Which is it?
The other person?
Or is it the spirit?
Something we have all
somehow got to get linked on to...
What's wrong
with me? I mean the REAL
me, the REAL
wrong. Not the thing I used to worry all the
time about. {{still do}}
"Some unknown factor
awesome because of its simplicity
that is determining our fate"
...
What place is this that the sayings
possibly have no sense at all?
False. Moving through air. Able to read
words upon these pages
with the very sensitive bottoms
of their sensors
they know english very well --
the whole system
and some of the things they
pick up conform
quite well
to the rules they've learned --
...
The freedom to rule
lives
and go on and on
without knowing the limit
for the trip
up into the dynamite
caves
to seek the loosenings
We [a calendar. And on it
days marked
out in
a boring way
someone's head
is turning into an elegant
string pattern
bald no ears
you look away
at what? We [
...
Someone is tracing its pattern
in our business
fidgeting, going back
and forth across earth
a small distance
but again
again
and again
between two cities
or between home
in a house
and town
[going to the closet to stuff away something]
going on a hunt
in the middle of the night
stalking something
stalking oneself
being oneself but being
unable to find it
so taking some thing one likes
and going out
into the balmy atmosphere of the city alone
in order to find some object
reticent with destiny
to call one's own
by
A man
with the head of a fish
and only one eye
he was as big as a door
he kept us all as hostages
hostages for what though?
and he was always
angry
ironical
and courteous
he hated us
or needed to seem so
it was real enough
but how it seemed
shifted so quickly
estimation seemed radically
humbled
beyond recall
...
Though of course I don't fall
under the type
I am also
everybody
and must try
out all the
marks that happen to appeal to me
in order to complete my
special view
...
If you move your point a great amount
you could perhaps become a
large horse or another
beast or a train
in the dawn
with boxcars but if you move
it only a small amount you become
another kind of person fat
if you aren't taller if
you are tall
...
They keep changing
how old you are
right in front of your face
outside two people
you think are themselves --
disappear too slowly for that
...
The monster likes one of us.
Which? Not to destroy but to use
for purposes we can't understand
exactly but we do
his bidding with an attitude
anyway
...
(the whole world
that monster - how
things (according to us)
are
forcing
the matter
of our lives
...
Now you are his slave [stove]
You can never leave the house.
There is no way to outsmart an Unknown Intelligence.
Stay put and listen.
...
And the proof is spaces existent between us
and in them
things
that are not strings
not strung on lines like beads
but people whose heads
are dogs or gods
who mean things
coming and going
out
by radiant design
themselves the products
of their own content
whose bodies are signs
of the news they carry
they are coming from everywhere
they are moving like heat
rising from the street
in the middle of the night
without hurry
doing the bidding of their
inmost alarm
and returning
to cities whose avenues
whose exchanges
whose patrols
elaborate identities
...
"An alien system of memory had invaded me."
Or no. It was my own.
Or I had changed my CHORDS
that I might now insert
myself into what
hitherto had been another's narrative.
You are seated where you are
or walking
or lying in an unclean room
or in an office
with brown chairs
or in a shop
under the steady gleam
or in a barren place
avoiding the janitors
or under the pressure of passionate circumstances
...
You are standing
on the edge
of a high cliff
overlooking an interesting valley where a river
hidden by the forest
nevertheless displays
the structure of its meandering
through low hills
out to another world